Lonely Tonight

I sit in bed, computer on my lap, TV on.  We had a severe storm earlier with high winds.  The lights blinked for a few seconds and I looked for the flashlight, but didn’t need it after all.

This is the day Audrey was supposed to arrive.  Her bed I ordered from Amazon arrived a week ago.  I took it out of the box and it’s been waiting.  How many times did I imagine her in it?  And the pretty collar?

The bed is still empty.  And it will never hold Audrey girl.

It’s amazing how I bonded with her having never seen her face to face.  It’s much like I felt when I carried my children.  You imagine and plan and wait.  I’m doing a kind of grieving.

Linda said she would send me some one else instead.  She also broke her foot stumbling over a cat and can’t take another to the airport right away, so there will be another wait.

It’s all right.  I don’t have any feelings for a new one right now.  I need to say goodbye to Audrey in my mind, though I know she’ll always be in my heart.

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2 thoughts on “Lonely Tonight

  1. I think there may be one in St. Louis, but farther than I travel these days. Anyway, I’m in no hurry. I must finish grieving the loss of Audrey. I’ll know when the time is right. Thank you for your interest. And your suggestion. I’ve used a dog rescue in the past, love the idea of saving poor little ones from discomfort, even death. I got a sweet rat terrier this past year who died four months later of liver cancer. She was an older dog. Actually, I’d gone to pick up a poodle mix but I saw Miss Muffet and she was so scared and in such bad shape, I couldn’t leave her. Rescues are so sad, you want to save them all.

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